Friday, May 13, 2005
I wanted 2 b there,but you diN alLOw me.
I wanted to be there w you,but I guess that you cldn't bear.
I hurt you so because you couldn't trust me,
but why did that trust you have 4 me brk free?
I stayed up all those nights,thinking you could love me 2.
I promised you Id leave you never,
but why'd you have to leave me ever.
I swear wont cry, bUt tHe heAvy tEars stiLL trodDen my chEeks.
I will admit you inFlicTed alL thEse paIn,
yet uR pResence still sEems tO wriGgle withiN me..
You're so different from me,yet you seem thE sAme.
You questioned my love,but did you even realized that mine you can not tame?
You said you knew me,yet you think I am who I am not.
Why is that so?we barely even fought,
n i tOt we had everything going,
we could haF proven to all those couples what true love is
but I guess my love for you now, will never to "U" be showing.
I will move on, I promise you,
but for now I write you this ballad.
My ballad of love..My love, my heart "The heart" that you threw.
You traMple it out of my soul and threw it down the aBySs,
but I'm waiting for someone to pick it up and mend it back together again.
I'm waiting for him, him that will be with me till 4evA.
I love you now but you're gone...
don't wait for me to cry,
coS dEep insiDe, I'm already smiling..
kiss
me
2:54 PM
i'M feEl iSolatEd...yea...alL oF a suDden..nahZ...i'm noT haVG mY pErioD...it's noT another of MY moOD swiNG...i'M noT alRigHT...!!!...
i'M retuRng tO thE wrEckEd hSe agaIN...tiS EVeninG...as MUch as i DUn WanA rEtuRN...i stiLL wAn2 tK a gliMpSe at iT...iT sEems as thoUgH it'S mY laSt nITE thErE>..i hAte mY daD...hE's suCH a BastErd...tO tiNK Tt i GOta "sEek RefuGe" iN mY aunT's ResidenTial PL...agAin...i' goNa coMplain aBT tt PLace...i CAnt AFfoRd tO reaCh hoME late>...eVeryone seems to tk me as a rebel whenever i reutrn home after 11pm....it's onli
11...but when my cousin step back at 12...it seems normal..wot e hell..it's driving me crazy...my life seems to b revolving ard YCK n hougang...no liFE...ain'T it???
late nights...own room...undisposable allowance...privacy and what knots...seems to diminished...into FACADEs... i dun get it...it's all his doings...y r we the one who shoulder foR him...
i'm melancholy...i'm not happy...nottin's smooth sailing like wot it used to be...things used to be at my disposal...but now...
mum's mood swings's been acting up every single day...n unfortunately...my bro n i ended up as her frustration-venting tool...we're used...implicated...damn him...deem him a bugger n failure for life...
i'm nonchalant in my outer shell...but m i realli tt indifferent??? my aunt seems to pinpoint at my perspective...everything i say seems to appear as nonsense...yeah...tt's onli to the adults...she ask me to b more submissive to my mum...but hello!!! everything's got an expiry date...when's mine??? do i have to b meek and quiet in front of them everyday??? is tt the real me they wanna me to put up w? i'm stressed...for e 1st time in my life...
i've to live on w it...rite??? i dun seem to have much choice...i dunno who to tok to n i dun wan to...cos it'll unravel even more unhappiness...
once upon a time...behind a impeccably-dressed gal...yeah...suCKSSsss!!!
kiss
me
1:51 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
the DefinitiOn o ANdRopAuse is- - the male counterpart of menopause, when the production of testosterone decreases and there are accompanying mental symptoms...
yeah...n i suspect...Woon Hin Keng...ouR eVer-iRritANt iN ELDC is SUffErg FroM TT...bEcoS o hiS iNcuRablE iLLnEss...we'Re liBerAteD at hiS mErcy....
ELDc...a place O hEll...oThEr theN thE frENZ i 'VE hEre...thE rEmaiNG suCks...we'Re alREaDi doWntRoDden enuFf to WoRk as a fRee LBR, nOT evEn chEap lBR becoS', We'Re nOT paiD a sINgLE cEnt...inSTeaD o bEinG amPathEtiC...hE traMpLe on ouR priDe wiF hiS ReVolTiNG woRds...any1 whO saW hiM ranTg aT mY clAsSmate toDay wiLL dEem hiM A luNaTic...
& ya...Ytd i Was doWn w a FEvEr...iT's Ok iF he diD noT sEnd hIS reGarDs...hE EVEn tolD anna abT hoW louSY mY spEech waS WheN hE diN eVEn caTcH a glIMpsE o iT...hoW i know? coS hE diN havE mY passWOrD tO accEss tO mY coM...
oH ya...bAD nEWs...i'Ve taBUlateD...i alREadi claimEd 3 MCs....n 3 HRs oF flExi lVE...daMN...i Was oNLI awaRe tT i'VE oNLi 10 hRs shaREd foR my 3 StopOvers...i'M doOMEd...hoW caN Tt b PosSiBLe...pErhapS...thiS's E oNE thiNG moNEy cAnT bUy...coS>..i'm liMITed tO juZ 10 MCs fOR thEsE 6 mTHs...
thE dayS r sO loNG n DragGy
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me
11:36 AM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
sPEecH spEech n stilL spEech...damn i GuesS thE onlI dEcenCy i'Ve lEarnT iN tiS stiFLinG scH is wriTg spEech n pResEntinG my tWo cenTs worTh woRds...
yEah...anyoNE cLd hAf guEsSed...nExt Wed i'Ve tO pRESEnT aGAin...thE alwiZ pErsuAsivE pC o mAstErpC...iT's aBT woT we'Ve lEarnT fRom ELDC...n WOt knoTs...
oH ya...tiS moRnG...i WoKE uP...in DisTreSs...1ST...i BrokE mY blUShER apPlicator...hoWevEr hArd i TriEd tO pC iT back...iT duN worK...nVM...dEn whEn i BOarD thE cAb...i ReaLised Tt thE solE oF mY shoEs caME oFf...wAh lao...iT wAs so daMn FOrtuNatE tT i BouGHt anOthEr pAir W mE loRZ...bUT iT doESN"T matCH mY piNK toP foR toDAy...it"s a bAbY bluE shoE...far Cry frOM mY black silletoe CYN shOe...n guEsS...WOT hapPen??? i CanT sEem tO wiThDrAW a fuCKg 20 buCKs frM mY acc...NYP's aTM machinE luRVes tO fiND fauLT oN thE daY i'VE <50 bUCks iN my lEdgeR...daMN!!!...
finAlli...aftER muCh veHeMEnt DefeNDs & ExoTIcatiNG spEech...mY freN reLEnTed tO WalK mE tO AmK cENtRal...*gRinZ*...many GOoD dEEDs acCumUlaTed??? nahZ...CuT tHE cRAp...i'VE nV fEel sO nakEd b4...juZ 20 FOr mY enTire Wk...
wEe...mY coUs smSed...hahz...i loVE him...i'M riCH agaIN...!!!!!!!!!!!
*muackZ...loVE aNnA*
kiss
me
2:28 PM
Monday, May 09, 2005
daMn fuCkg niCk....hE suCks...imaginE a pErsOn whEN iNtO cArTel to hAve a MEal...plaYed cArds After Eatg...at the end o the day...she's being maligned of sayg tt she's his gf...which is likE...duhZ???sInce whEN diD i saY tt...hE dUN have a moRseL oF shAme...daMN...n nExt...woT's iN E stoRe...hE tolD mE tt hiS supErioR saiD tT we'Re cReatinG trouBle in his WorkPLace...i DIn loRZ...if hE tinKS tt plAYg cArd iS a fORm of hAraSsmEnt...he's a moRon whO's GOt a pEa bRaiN...iN thE 1St place...thE cRewS diD nOT apProach uS...tHE exTravagaNt coNsumEr tO kEep oUR caRds Away...iF thOSe FreakS asK uS to...wuN wE nOT b obLiged To Do so??
N oN sAt...hE mSGed mE...yeaH...toNE wAS pRetTy niCe...sORie...i CAn onLI RetuRN yA casH nExt moNTh...WTF lor...iS 100 TOo muCh fOR hiM tO bEar tIl he nEed a lEeWay oF 2 mThs???tt"s iNCreDibLE...
i wonDer which Era tiS reTard Came FrOm...teLlG mE tALeS whiCH nV fails tO bEwilDer mE...yEah...fuCk...i'M huRt oNCe again...buT...i'Ve stiLl GOt EdmuND...muackZ...
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me
10:23 AM
we're too free...too lax...no wonder everyone's jumping to truancy...MC...how lame can it b...in today's era, it's being manipulated as a tool to excuse students from turning up for lessons...in today's world, MC's been used by every student, c'mon...dun b a big fat liar!!! dun tell me u din feign it b4...
yaY!!!...finally i noe how to post pics...mua!!!