Friday, October 14, 2005
finally...it's the end of our tedious TEP...it's the end of our either hectic or slacky days...marchg towards our classical on monday...
lotsa mixed feelings for me...kinda miss the pple in cheers...eldc n of cos...ardc...i'm petrified..wonder how i position myself in class on mon...the cloud of awkwardness will somehow be lingering in the ominous sky...
today's one of their bday...i wished her happy bday...all i get was a reaction on her hand, w her back facing me...i din even get a smile...i wonder wot had i committed to get such a murderous act...doesnt pay to b nice...
will b headg for KBOX n suntec on mon...w 2 diff clicks...tml celebrating ivy's bday...was anticipating it since tues...hahZ...how i miss my gal...sec sch frens r realli more everlasting den any frens i meet in my latter phase...at least i feel light w them...at the veri minimum..i dun hafta watch wot i say...n everyone's secret's open secrets within ourselves...
i'm afraid to learn anything new...or rather, the truth...i dun wanna get any slanderous remarks again...somehow or rather...the scene still play back to me momentarily...probably they're onli aware o protecting their emotions...but not others...or perhaps...the discarded ones...realli wonder if they r following my footsteps in repitition...i wonder how smeared my name is...to tink tt some pple's treatment 2wards me r no longer the same...m i over-sensitive??? i hope so...i'm grieving...probably i reali tk them seriously as my fren...but i'm not returned the favour...saddening...
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me
10:37 PM
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
mY 17th Oct ResolutIon///Woah...jUZ got my time table today...wAs kinDA fine W iT...Mon n FRi's mY ofFicIal Early day...Wed...hahZ!!! i can mAKe it oFficial on my behalf...cos the last 3 hrs's lecture...n it's abt national education...guess no one will blame me if i din go for it...
i'm bogged down w tonnes o sub...business law, business acc, costing acc, business finance, french (eEkZ...i was opting for german...but too little intake to form a class...damn it...), ICT, Taxation and finally...National Education...
no MOre short days i guess...cos some o the tut ends at the end of the day..yawns...
i wanna work!!! but guess i can make it since i have quite a number o free days...n i wanna mug on sunday...for the chapters tt the lect gonna go thru for the wk...yeah...it's a blabbering o words...no responsibilities involved...but nahZ!!! i gonna make it happen...my result's too trashy to b seen in places like NTU NUS or even SMU...the best i cld make out of it is SIM...goodness...i've wasted my yr 1 like tt...not studyg n all...
i'm quite excited w french actually...haha... hope i get a chance for exchange prog??? i guess not...i'm not those top-notch stud...i gotta get at least 4 A's for tis sem...if not, i can forget abt enterin U...i dun wanna lve SIngapore...neither do i wanna lve my frens...happy hatched day IVY TAN!!! sorrie if my writing got no tally today...i'm lethargic...
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me
6:50 PM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
i finally noe the answer for the boycotting i've got recently...yeap...cos o our econs proj...two pple(s & e) were frm my click...one's quite ok w me (p) n one guy tt i worked w for tis particular proj...P happens to b not doin anything for the proj...end up i gotta write her speech for her n she commented n complained to us y is her speech so short...rubbishy yeah...
everyone was pissed n said she gonna get it for her peer evaluation...ended up when i realli mentioned her "commitment"...i was blamed for being merciless...wot kinda word is tis...everyone dun seem to tk in acc for watever they've said n meant...
another thing was tt tt time, one gal told me she's a les...c'mon, we're a click o 5...i dun c any prob in tellg other pple in our grp...moreover...wot's the big deal...probably ur the most conservative les i've ever seen...i'm one b4 as well...SO??? big fuck??? perhaps i got loose tongue...juZ spare me ur so-called secrets next time
u told me u dislike me the moment i stepped in nyp...n yet u shower me w attention...tt's like how fake...how can u say i still treat P like fren after all i've written abt her??? tt's not being fair...moreover...u r juZ n outsider...u dunno wot exactly happen..onli got closer to P after everything happens cos S n E got sour w me...n i confided in P...it's juZ so simple...u pple juz like to live in another dimension o the world...thinkg ur complications's juZ too rite...yeah...i got upset over these things...which i wonder y...cos probably i tk u as a fren more den u tk me...perhaps poly's frenship's too fragile...i din c all these in my past sec sch life...or even jc life...perhaps tt's the diff btwn coed schs n mono...yeap...nvm...i'll juZ complete my 1.5 yrs more in nyp, get done w it...n off i go...
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me
6:14 PM