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Saturday, April 29, 2006
here's the foto as promised...

chocolates i bought from BOURc...dunno wat...dunno how to spell...it's a kiosk in raffles exchange tt sells home made choc...

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Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting these r the cards i made for them....haha...they were touched of cos n claim tt they r apologetic for being impatient...hmph...my 11wks o grieve immediately subside...

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this foamy heart-shaped latte...served in baker's inn...it's my colleagues...i took macademia steamer but wun haf such visual enjoyment cos it's all foamy white...but irregardless o tt...it's still fab..

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SMoked Salmon Linguini...ordered by kylene...oopppss...same mistake here...i took the food after we eat it...*burpZ*...haha...it was kinda good...the servings r generous

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my lame masterpc after savouring it...not bad...kinda thick...n the sphagetti is good...chewy

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me 9:25 AM


Friday, April 28, 2006
had a hearty meal in baker's inn juZ now...it's in fullerton one...mmm...not bad i wld say...

the crayfish pasta i tried is kinda good...the stocks n tomato...woah...seriously loads...n their bloody mary soup which is actualli spicy tomatoes but they wanna make it sound more exotic or sophisticated...is not bad...it's thick enuff... mmm...mango moose is a muz try...sweet blender is kinda good but muZ share w frens cos it's quite rich in content...

the macademia steamer is good...latte looks lovely....will post the pics ltr one, together w my art pieces...

luff til i drop dead can...my fren kept insisting her jokes were funny...but my supp n all juZ claim tt she's lame...the atmosphere was splendid...got to c their different angles...so prolly my philosophy in life...not to gauge pple in a stagnant pt o view...time allows all processes to tk place...so judge pple longer b4 we lay our comments...

i stink to the core...cos i hafta rush to work...was juZ 15 mins earlier b4 the day start...rushing out cards together w the choco...luff too much til i feel heaty...but overall...all these sheds r worthwhile...love allianz pple loads...
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me 2:29 PM


reflecting back these 11 wks...wasnt such a bad chore after all...colleagues r quiet but heartwarming...they're soft spoken but w sense..n they're willing to help thou at times they were realli hectic...

felt bad for not making the note board for them as my mum bought the wrong material...how to draw on sticky surfaces rite...

sense o reluctance conquer me...cos i simply cant bear to lve tis conducive envt...a place where i do my own gaming, blogging, calling...no interference...since i got a whole room to myself...din realise i hafta bid goodbye so soon...

the onli thing tt beam my day was...how they thank me for my small pressie...it was...i dunno how to describe...they said tt i was sweet n all...haha...so happy...but behind tis happiness means tt i gonna farewell them soon...so i was on moderate high n little low today...mixed emotions...

i feel so sorrie for bitching abt them in the past...i noe it was insolence...but hope they can sense my apology...

sch's starting soon w/o a holiday...n i tink we onli haf 14 wks for tis sem...which means 14 wks ltr will b our holiday...woots....hehe...i miss u pple!
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me 10:18 AM


Thursday, April 27, 2006
i suddenly feel tt i m so angelica...haha...so sweet n emotional...well today i was kept busier...packing lotsa historical items into the boxes for archiving...

bought my in-charge n colleagues some chocolates...n i gonna draw them some anime on the note board which i will purchase ltr...n theme it finance team...sweet o me...but dun steal my idea...spent 30 bucks in all...quite economical since i bought for 5 pple...but matilda is better...she spent 6 bucks for all pressies...i realli tk my hat off for her...geeezzz...

sch's reopening soon...n it spells tt i'm leaving this place which i term it as hellhole in day 1...cos it's boring, lifeless, emotionless...even the air's stifling...but i'm human...i still haf tt morsel o humane in me...gradualli i found out tt they're no brats...they treated me veri amiably tis few days...i m touched...wonder if i wil cry tml...haha...no la...

but i will cry if they eat my chocolate...cos it's such an art pc...will post the pic tonight cos i din bring USB...

taking a break from packing 6 big boxes o papers...got several paper cuts...(darling, u heard not? fly back n apply ailment for me la...idiot)...anime is damn hard to draw la...ingenious pple like me cant even do it...i doubt i will do a good job...but token is more impt...

well...will juZ stop here...my brain's drained frm all the coolie job i've done in the morn
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me 2:10 PM


Wednesday, April 26, 2006
was reading xiaxue's blog juZ now...yup...someone posted her abt the "kindoki"...it's basicalli witchcraft tt the colognase tinks tt it has the ability to make pple barren, deprive u off everything n destruct ur complete life...

all i cld say was atrocity n absurdity...y?
children "suspected" o suffering frm kindoki, in order to gain their parents or relatives' faith...they r willing to b subjected to brutal treatments...

treatments like rubbing chilli powder/pepper on the child's eyes, stomach...n worst o all....they got a 40+ sturdy looking man trampling on these vulnerable kids...

i dunno how haf the society changed, but changes shld b improving or upgrading...these lowly act somehow put me to shame...i m enjoying my life slacking in the office n yet i complained having nothing to do to pass my time, i m juZ throwing my tantrum...but children like them cant even choose to say no to such treatment, n ended up enduring it submissively...isn't it astounding??? on top o it, wat was made worst was tt, when a girl was suspected o contracting kindoki...she was placed over the fire, n according to them, if she scream, she is verified w kindoki...wat the fuck....life's such a bitch for them...who wun feel painful when we scald ourselves? let alone placing the whole body over the flames...

Xiaxue mentioned tt "Natural selection at work, Eekean. Dumb parents give birth to kids... Their kids die when abandoned. Stops the dumbness from being passed down.Imagine the willingly abused kid gets saved by you, and he grows up thinking he must also abuse his kid. How many generations of kids are you willing to save, and how much money must working, normal individuals give in taxes to save the dumb?Innocent as the kids are, that's the way the world functions. It's sad, but true.Because we can't all be clever."

i'm afraid i wld haf to oppose her words cos i tink it's too crude...be it highly intellectual or foolish, since wat done is done ie. giving birth to a new life, generate them into someone smarter...tis has nottin got to do w genes...children in sg with retard learning or intellectual are sent to special schools n all...at least they unleash their live in a different but steady path....y condemn such poor little things when they did not commit any crime...if giving tax is so hard o we able-bodied pple...wat abt these little things? they cant work...they r not adept in skills...wat can they feed on then...moreover, tax is onli a portion o our income...not the major amount...which means, we r juZ forgoing some o our luxury goods not the quality food n basic necessity...

However, i do agree w wat she says in the later part o her postings...tt the fittest will survive...however...y abandon the old woman??? we can still share wat...true tt it's cock since we mention it's enuff for 4 pple...but hey...u mentioned tt it's on an island...i'm sure there's available food n fruits as well...unless u wanna change ur word to desert...n u haf alr self contradict urself tt there's the strongest man...he shld hunt for the others...i guess it'll solve all problems...cos no one is infallible...we r still interdependent o each other...tt's wat we call the ecology cycle...

the world will b perfect if u and ur male classmates speech r placed in a puzzle...cos the picture will b so beautiful...strongest man hunt+sharing among everyone = no one starving...

well, juZ my two cents worth...tk it or lve it...
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me 9:33 AM


back from ytd's mc...woke up damn earli...so it's as if i din rest as much as well...i took 45 mins to make my way in n outta polyclinic...tt's kinda fast...i noe i m a selfish bitch la...tt time when they pended my medicine til the last in the queue...i fuck them upside down...but tis time round...i was supposedly behind 6 pple...n my name's the 1st to b read out...hah...ya la ya la...i selfish la...

wanted to make a trip down to town...to get sth for chowchow...but m too lazy to do so.....cooked myself sirloin steak n seafood soup ytd....yummy....haha....love spending time at home...

anyw...it's not as bad as wat u tink...w/o him by my side...i feel better lor...cos he's alwiz the giving in party...whereas i m at the receiving end...thus, i owed him a million...but now he's away...at least i can pin for him n wait for his returns...it's my way o showing my love, motivation and gratitude for watever he's done for me for the past 1 yr...so i m suffering willingly...miss him a great deal, but...wat to do...i pref a rich guy w brain n qualification....not juZ wealth cos tt's plain superficial...

no need to ke lian me...juZ ampathize w me will do...he's returning in 1mth+ time anyw....times fly...2 yrs will b up soon...

*hOPe hONEy will c THe Postg...uRveZ ya lOTssaaa
kiss
me 8:53 AM


another particular blog dedicated to shawn liao again...

of cos u got teach me...but u also say til like u dun fit into the class by any tom dick n harry in the class ma...as if i dun communicate w u...i guess i do lor...since u din mention me...i dun wanna mention u too! i m v petty one...

i m not in the cut throat game la...if i m ....i willl study damn hard la...wun let pple overtake me one...i m so slack, cut wat throat...onli got pple cut my throat...moreover...chewhui they all r diligent...n they tk each other results humbly lor...when my results're so bad...they tell me not to b upset...so i m touched la...for u! haiya...u alwiz w ur hongguan click...wan 2 talk to u also hard lor...come join us la...thou i dun fit into the missing puzzle, at least there's company n most imptly,,,they study but dun challenge each other...tt's the beauty o tis grp...
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me 8:40 AM


Monday, April 24, 2006
agreed w shawn tt we dun seem to fit into the class...but i guess onli he's in the cut-throat grp la...chew hui they r quite nice to me...andrea too...at least they bother to teach me things i ask...unlike pple who're more self-centred...perhaps it's time to propell to us...

i kinda miss sch...but upon tinkg o seeing those 4 pple n badri...my mind aches badly...

alan asked me ytd,,,"how come u dun sound like a student..."

i replied:" cos i seem v free is it"

he said:" no la...juZ tt u nv complain abt proj n tutorials b4 wat"

i juZ told him:"wat's there to complain, it's our duty wat...everyone's complaining abt sch work sch work...not sian meh... ..."

looks like i'm so detached from nyp as well...even my external frens noticed i hardly tok abt sch...cos there's nottin to talk abt la...

i wun haf the privilege to enjoy the bliss o one whole big grp o IPP frens like shawn since i'm attached w 1 other gal in my current attachment stay...how sad...consider urself lucky...1 more yr to go n we r off NYP...
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me 1:14 PM


7 deadly sins i've committed during the weekends...

disgusting...i noe it's disgusting to admit i haven been losing money on the mahjong table since last yr aug til now...my total losing counter onli strive up to 3 when i had played more den 50 times during tis period...how disgusting...was resolute by tellg my fren to boycott me next time...dun feel my existence...dun ask me along for games...guilty feet yea...sorrie peeps...

fallg heads over heels...i noe i said b4 i wun feel the same for another guy...but hah...i tink i m more definite o wat i wan as compared to the past...i miss him n ponder abt him...anticipating abt his returns but m nv generous in tellg him how much i love him...

adding extra pounds to the weighing machine...man...i haf been binging mad...tink he cant recognise me when he touch down...

broke my promise...was supposed to acc my mum all the way ytd for viewing o lightings since i'm moving place soon...but was swayed by my fren's last min mahjong session...sorrie mum...heh

cynical...i hate to b a racist la...i hate to bitch...but den all the foreign blacks rite...i do not understand y they cant b a little more considerate or understanding...they seem to love to flash their armpit n air it in the mid air in the train...i simply dun get it...the "aroma" seem to cling on them whenever i c their presence...sorrie la...i tink i will b hated for making such scorns...but i bet there're pple who're my follower to tis statement...

refuse to give my bro's cash...no choice...cos my mum forbidded cos she said i spoilt my bro to the max...

dogs frenzy...i love dogs n i wan to keep dogs...but my mum forbid me to...but i keep hallucinating them...i love them...saw a japanese spitZ tt's damn ****ing cute in kim keat ytd..omg la...even my mum claims tt it's cute....awwww....it stole my heart away... tis is the japanese spitz...i found online one...cos it's no nice to tk pics in the shop...paiseh...

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if i m not wrong...tis is the 2 wks born jack russell or miniature schnauzer( dunno how to spell)

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n tis is 1 month old

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n a proud tze shih...

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they're such a darling...cutie pie...i will marry whoever who bought me...
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me 10:39 AM


Friday, April 21, 2006
i tink among all my frens...jiamin has got the most easily contented perception abt her future life...she do not wan any fancy life, juZ someone to love to settle down...she dun ask for a sky high pay, juZ some sustainable pay n rank will do the job...n she juZ wan a family car but din specify its brands n models shows tt she's down-to-earth n she dun give a damn o prestige...

i wld wan more den these...i dun wanna haf family car...cos my spouse if i haf, will haf individual car...for convenience purpose i guess...cos it's frustrating to be waiting for transport when u need it urgently...i wan to haf more den 2 kids if allowed...i wanna haf a fat pay...pref more den 10k a month will make me a contented lady...i wan to b someone who'll b issued the "millionaires" magazine cos tt's onli 0.1% o the rich population who'll receive it...n like the theme suggest, it basicalli means we haf at least 1million spare cash w us...so 10k job will onli lead a comfy life not sth spectacular...

asking for too much? looking at my mum, i guess not...she's given all her life time savings to the basterd ex-husband o hers...he'll pounce on every opportunity to drain her dry...how unscrupulous...he's abusin the fact tt my mum still harbour hopes on him...how retarded...

so...i sought to b someone great, someone who's ideas will b enacted in some mncs..someone who has a foothold in the financing sector...someone who carry weights in her speech...someone who's respected by all subordinates...someone who perform miracle outta ruins...someone who can inculcate the right morals on the younger generations...

such great ambitions...but i will achieve it...cos my frens n i were talking abt buying some suburb areas in aust to settle our last few yrs o our life there...breeding dogs or growing some veg...tranquility, isnt it...lookin forward for tt...

looking forward for world tour...travelling to different region within 1 yr...which means...i m jobless for 1 yr...in order to sustain such luxury...i haf to earn lots...so...the above i haf mentioned applied to my scenario...
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me 9:37 AM


Thursday, April 20, 2006
in the name of our father and the holy spirit amen...i presume the existence o homos will eek the abhorrence outta christants n even normal beings...

was kinda against them b4 i read the blog...but the sight o 2 pretty boys snapping pictures din look too queer after all...in fact...it falls into a scenic picture...unexpectably ordinary...

it's undoubtedly disgusting when they r whimpering their lovey dovey words for each other...but at least in our context, we do so for our opposite attracts...at the end o the day, the earth is round, everything returns back to the square...wat they're merely goin thru is love...juZ tt most pple perceive it as some immoral affections...nonetheless i beg to differ...

i had once asked my fren or even my ex gf (those days were juZ inquisitive abt how lesbianism feels on me) "y will u all fall for a gal"...their answers r short n sweet n hit the point..."becos gals understand each other better...guys will onli further aggravate our wounded sores.." nice score there...i agree...

it's a norm to c gals holding hands in today era...perhaps we shld change our ever traditional idea or perspective on these pretty boys...they're all out to find love n warmth to secure their soul...same goes out to the str8 couples...

by the way...the site is www.colinandkero.blogspot.com

kero is cuter den colin...but colin juZ look like a normal guy to me...seriosuly...there isnt any special traits abt them tt evolve their sexuality...no fret...at least i hold my respect for them to b brave enough to stand out among the crowd n pledge their extraordinary n undying love...
kiss
me 10:57 AM


Wednesday, April 19, 2006
read someone's blog again juz now...mmm...sympathize her or ampathizing w her??? *shrugZ*

she said tt her ex broke the promise given to her a yr ago...yup...n tt he's got someone new beside him rite now...so all the sweet nothings given to her last yr vanished into thin yr...n she's grieving over tis...n he seldom call her durin their being-together...but kept prompting tt he gotta call his current gal soon...

at the end o the day...relationships end tis way...i experienced it as well...perhaps well...given the fact tt he onli call me once a wk w less den 4 msgs...i still fall head over heels w him...given the idea tt he's a pauper...i hopelessly n gullibly followed him, giving him financial aids...given the knowledge tt he's trash-inclined w no single morsel o brains but brawns, i still love him...not tt i'm scrutinizing him onli after we broke...i knew it from the start but willingly plunge in...ya..how stupid...tt's y pple call tis love...

when he needs it..u're supposed to b at his beck n call...when he's occupied dunno for wat reason cos i dun c a pt y he can b more hectic den me...he dun even give a glimpse o his whereabts...when he spent a night over ur place...he left scurrily the next day...goin home or goin other homes??? i've no idea...

so in conclusion...find someone u dun love but reciprocates ur slightest kindness...n tt is if u noe urself well...pple like me will remain focused on juZ 1 relationship will not give up a person who loves me so much to a person i love eventualli...cos...there's a saying goes...love the one tt hurts u, dun hurt the one tt u love...plain stupidity...tt's wat i will call self-inflicted pain...cos i've experience all...no pt stayg beside ur loved ones when they're slaying u...stay w the one tt has the intention n ability to pamper u...sounds crude but it's realistic...

chances are...tis blogger will not chance upon my blog...even if u saw it...be it...it's meant for u anyw...
kiss
me 9:27 AM


Tuesday, April 18, 2006
eEewww,,,my whole body stink from the lunch...not w my packet food..but joined mimi for lunch thereafter my packed food....deb was telling me how nice CK euphoria smells...n when i said i wanna try buying...she stopped me in my face sayg no, cos she dun wanna me b a copycat...idiot her...entice me n make me drool but dun let me possess the item

at least today has more work compared to the past 2 wks...i feel more exhilarated n fulfilling of cos...

hair's gettin longer n i gonna snip it off thou everyone was amazed tt i shorten til tt length...goin for hair dyeing w deb next sun...hopefully i wun b drench in copper again...cos i'm tired o the colour which seems to suit me to a T...

i miss andrea n company, i miss chowchow...i miss edmund...i miss everyone...
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me 4:51 PM


tis portion o posting is dedicated to shawn...

1stly: she's not attached, juZ met up w her last wk, so for that...i m certain...had helped ya ask alr

2ndly...y r u considered a fool??? a person will onli b considered a fool is when he flop in sticky situation n assume he takes it well...tis is basically making a fool outta himself...tt's wat we called a fool...wat u merely got into now is confusion, nottin to do w being foolish, basically it's onli termed as perplexity...

3rdly...3.5 for GPA rite...i tink u can get into SMU alr...juZ tt their sch fees a little more steep compared to the traditional 2 local uni...moreover...SMU enjoys more prestige...n once u're enlisted for their interview rite...grab the chance to vocalise n i'm sure there's no prob gettin ya in..cos my mum's colleagues i've found out...onli got 3.2 for GPA

lastly, voice out when u r perturbed...frens can also unlock ur door wat....no neccessay her...no one will die on another...no one's fallible cos o another individuals...it's juZ a matter o how u portray the upcoming obstacles n where ur prerogative lies...u're a sweet person...at least meticulous rite? so...stay positive...if u tink dumping ur 1st for the 2nd is a mistake??? learn it den...it's growing phase...moreover...i 'm sure u haf ya reason for doin tt in the past...dun dwell on it...u shld live w it...humans rely on instincts for all situations k...dun i'm sure u din do it outta impulse tt time...anyw...if u take it badly...it's called karma...but if u tk it optimistically like wat i often do, it's a lesson...yups...tt's all for u!
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me 9:03 AM


Thursday, April 13, 2006
read a few intriguing stories for the past 5 hrs...entangling love, nonchalence surface but passionate interior...melting words...

"If I have a million dollars, I would buy a house. Do I have a million?""No. That's why I don't have a house.""If I have wings, I can fly. Do I have wings?""No. So I can never fly.""If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean, but it still can't put off the flame of love between us. Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn off?""No. That’s why I don't love you."

was fantastically weaved into

If I have one more day to live, I want to be your girlfriend. Do I have one more day? No. Too bad. I can't be your girlfriend... not in this life.If I have wings, I want to fly down from the paradise just to see you. Do I have wings? No. Sadly. I can never see you again.If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, but it still can't put off the flame of love btw us. Can all the water in a bath-tub be drawn off? Can.
So yes. I LOVE YOU.


be it fictitious or not, it's sometime i'll sit n ponder...if such L exists...tis is abt a tale whom a guy got connected to a gal thru internet...they xchanged lotsa emails n stuff...n finalli advancing to chats...n ulitmately meetups...everything's taking a natural form...until the gal suddenly left him a note...saying bye forever...the 1st verse i placed juZ now was told by the guy to the gal b4 he falls in a relationship...whereas the latter was spoken to the guy when she left...how sweet n embracing

many cld survive the distant relationship n obstacles whereas us, the fortunate ones r stranded in arguments tt r so minute...so insignificant except we turn to blow them up from a molehill...perhaps we shld tink further b4 putting the word "break" in our all-time conversation...it's not a good word to end everything since we started from scratch sweet...

nonetheless, was sprouting my worthless two cents worth...had too much time to loiter ard the internet...read many stories from short stories to online novels to millions o smal auctions...listening to ah-mei's songs....nice n ...somehow my hair stood...yup...

kylene's not at work again...this is her 4th mc for this month...hope she gets well soon...n i feel proud o myself today..i ate alone in the office, 1st time ever...eating alone sucks...the haunt of loneliness n vulnerability juZ ransack me..i had to pretend browsing thru the web but no content got into my head...y m i so pretentious to my dear self...no idea ~shrugZ`



meeting up w mum for some home reno thingy in expo ltr...excited!!! rather not the exhibtion but the thought tt i can stay home n slack keeps me awake...since ed's not in town...no point goin out...u will realli onli learn to cherish when the being's not by ur physical side...anguished when u need someone to hug in the middle o the nite but realised he's at the opp side o the earth...happy w ur surroundings but no one intimate enuff to share w...n lastly, oblivious to anyone cept the ghost o U & ME...

~counting down for the day u're back, my love~

Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...Time is Eternity.

down to reading some trading materials...will blog soon...probably upload pics for the home reno exhibition...
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me 1:50 PM


Wednesday, April 12, 2006
had a hefty dinner w anna, Mat n cheehou...in ichiban sushi juZ ytd...veri brief meetup w congested content...exchanged mucha working life n office politics...everyone was too tired, thus we rounded our day w gelato ice-cream

damn allianz...make my skin so dry n my pores exploding...i got tiny breakouts on my forehead can...w 6 microscopic pimples...tis's the worst phenomenem...cos small ones r damn hard to deal w...n when a person is dull..it's impossible to look good in make-ups..not a single radiant streak in me...

talkg abt shopping...i can cry...cos i almost emptied my allowance...but at least i'm at a better edge cos mimi finished her...n best...her dad's allowance for her as well...bless u gal

jiamin sounded real...i wun say is sad...perhaps moody w the mix of nonchalence is the word...c'mon there's no such things as wednesday blues...so...cheer up...everyone is born imperfect...but a perfect life is carved out by individuals...depending on ur prerogative n choices...at least u haf a pick in making choices rite??? ain't tt bad...

juZ got myself a balenciaga bronze bag...at least i feel a little better w retail therapy... Image hosting by Photobucket
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me 2:18 PM


Tuesday, April 11, 2006
juZ tune in to LA line a couple o mins ago...my guy had turned in to bed...its a wee 2am for them over there...

i miss him...keep questioning him abt his sch n all...n he insisted on coming back to sg given the one wk break...kept lamenting tt he's nuts but of cos deep down i feel sweet inside...miss the way he brush my hair, miss the one time he told me "so wat if ur hair is screwed, it can grow back" last yr in july, miss the way he ranted pple who sinned me for the intention o protecting me...miss his culinary skills thou its way below my mum and anyone i cld tink o...

i miss u bunny...but 2 yrs will sweep by n we can b lingering o each other again...stay positive...

to my guy:

-dun say sorrie to me when we both noe tt i'm throwing my tantrum randomly cos it'll make me weep at the end o the day
-dun say sorrie when u're not the culprit who made me cry deep at nite
-dun feel sorrie when my days seemed not rite...cos i will fall deeper w u
-dun feel aggravated when i dun feel a pinch on others' comment since urs matter the most
-dun feel claustrophobic tt i dun feel the same for u when in fact it's accumulating w each passing day
-well...dun come back too often cos i will pin for more n i might not let u go back...i'm controlling now cos i wan to c the future in us...i love u bunny...niteZ
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me 5:01 PM


had lunch w cheehou the v last min...cos amanda gotta rush work for her supp...met milah after which...had a full lunch...n here i m rottin in the off again...wat's new...

amanda was asking me to blog some fashion thingy...to offer my two cents worth to her...but i m not up to the task...i m so bad in finding stuff online...sorrie babe...will compensate when we r shopping outside...

mat was suggesting me to sms her when i m bored in the off...but tis beloved o mine took millions o yrs to reply...i;ve read millions o novels to the extent i m so well-learnt...i blog everyday til i ran out o tots thou i noe i'm good w words n articulated...i;ve been playing game...i've been msng n gmailing(since ytd)...i've done so much online shopping on yahoo auction til i drop dead...

wah...wat else shld i do man...time's corroding me
when's sch startg...
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me 2:48 PM


kylene's on mc again...yup...she left me stranded in damn allianz for consecutively 2 days...but m in the tiptop mood today...cos meetg anna mat n cheehou ltr...for our 2nd rd o catch up

haha..touched tt jiamin actualli popped by my blog to read my mundane illustration, my un-called for trashy tots...i agree totally tt we r all selfish...so tt's juZ to say both pple who r utterly selfish but w the same frenquency n chemistry can bog together...er...m i right??? well...duno wat i'm talkg abt...too chirpy...wonder if amanda will b free to eat w me ltr...

hai....i wanna eat ajisen for lunch!!! n marche today....jia lat...gonna b bloated further...oh yeah...i love my timetable tis time rd...fri's off for me...mon's ending at 5 with onli one pathetic hr o breaktime when the day breaks as earli as 8....n tue will end at 6...but at least the day starts at 12...no more nonsense...cos the lecturer tis sem r fucking smart...they play all lect in btwn...no one can miss any n the tut r at the end o the day...exp for thurs...geez...so i will lve home at 2 on thurs when i onli haf to attend a lesson at 1...how dumb...den the last lect...forget it...cos it's some report writing...guess i can pass it within a glimpse...ooopppsss....so haughty...but i tink everyone can do it...agreee???

so i tink i will settle myself down for a fri n sat job...den sun i will tk a deep breath n slp all i can...i miss andrea, chewchew, shufen, pingping laopo, xinxin, boon hehe...i also miss edmund...my ever loving baby...i miss not the sch but the pple la...cya!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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me 8:42 AM


Monday, April 10, 2006
dragging my dilated sou to the office again....sat n sun're alwiz tireless...but mon simply sucks...

went for ancestral prayer on sat...miss my grandma so...been 8 yrs since she left me...i rem i was brought up by her since i was borned...she's a woman who dun follow her words...cos she loves to chide me...n i will shun behind my cousin...of cos my poor coussie hafta tk the caning on my behalf...notti me...

she dotes on me alone since young...she will alwiz piggyback me to the market...afraid i will slip on the muddy floor...she attends to my needs unconditionally...n she weave me clothings for me to tuck in...

everyone says she's a good cook...her mutton soup is fab thou i've nv tasted b4...she would cook me the simplest fare to give me a balanced diet...she loves to look good....she wil spend 30 mins juZ to bath n 15 mins to do up her hair...n she craddle me to slp every nite...

unfortunately she was down with alzheimer when i was 10...perhaps it's a blessing in disguise...cos from den on...she stayed w me as she stayed w my aunt in the past...living w her is a wonderful experience...reminscing...reminscing...reminscing...
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me 9:11 AM


Thursday, April 06, 2006
being together w the person u love most of cos is a happy occasion...but how do we noe if the person love us the most??? forever??? at tt particular moment or instanteously??? or even vaguely- which refers to sometimes it's there n sometimes it's not...

read jiamin blog juZ now...true...we r selfish...but i beg to differ...

who proclaims u will b the happiest when u r w the person u love...it is true tt the person who makes u cry is the person who can solve ur grievances...but...he might not b the best person to make u smile...being together w the person u love most is wat everyone yearn for...but in reality..we tend to settle for the second best...we r selfish...becos we wan to seek for the person who love us more...n at the end o the day...we wld not b sore...

if knowing tis person wld upset me...aggravate me further...i will choose to stick to someone whom i dun love instead o goin back to him...y? cos i wan to b happy...

i rem when i was at the young age o 14...my cousin once referred n incident abt her fren...she was pregnant when she's 14...n she married the guy at 19 tt time....after 7 yrs...when my cousin saw her down the streets...she is still chirpy as ever...affectionate n all w her husband...such fairytale r realli a rare sight..it's one in a million

on the contrary...i haf heard more cases o bitches n jerks...for instance...there was a happy couple walking down their 10 yrs o relationship...juZ b4 mths when they r abt to walk down the aisle...tt guy fell for another...so, wat does it show??? tt person has been selfishly hiding his feeling tt in actual fact, he doesnt love her so in the past??? no...it's wrong...in fact...his love wavered n changed... we r not looking at a point o time...we r looking at the continual flow...as much as i tink i m mean...i still tink it's not his err...cos at least he chose to back out knowing he dun love her anymore

however,for me, i will will stick to the person i chose...loving him or not is seriously not the issue...the issue is...wld i b falling into the abyss... ultimately...i m usualli the dominant one... i adore victory...well...i m selfish in a way...but at least...i will preserve all-myself and my chosen one...n...i m not fickled...well..i m actualli fickled...but once my eyes have set on one...n he has reciprocated...he's destined to b mine...unless he chose to lve...crap...anyone understand such ambiguous blog???
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me 3:24 PM


it's gonna b another late nite...yawn...goin kbox w mimi n nam...hahZ...been a long time since i flair my voice...ah-hem...

well...mimi was suggesting tt on good fri we'll go suntanning in sentosa...but i got too much lard to flaunt...haha...dun tink i'll give it a miss...cos i will b rottin at home anyw..

miss st nicks food suddenly...queues n piping hot foods will proliferate my mind vividly at the tot o it...been a long time since i went on a shoppg spree...but dun tink that pathetic pay can bring me far...food alone alr cost a bomb

anna juZ rejected me for sentosa trip...but at least i will b seeing my dear bunnies on tues...
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me 2:11 PM


i'm in a conundrum

HELP!!!

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which one to get???
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me 11:17 AM


Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i tink my female in-charge (ann) has got some problem...she is suffering from sensitivity disorder...she kept asking me to do some amendments for the pasting o receipts on a fresh pc o paper...

i did...n i followed suit...following the eg she had given me...n i realised tt i cld actualli paste the receipts on printed pages cos the example tells me so...in 4 mins after i submitted my work...she came into my room...n she narrowed her eyes, shrug her eyebrow n ask me how could i do tt...pasting receipts on fresh pc o paper is essential becos one fine day they might need to photocopy it...n she ask me to remove those paper tt r alr stuck fast w glue by tearing them out one by one...

after which...she came in again...asking me how could i stick all the receipt together...goodness...she's teaching me how to waste paper....since the receipt is reinburse by the same person...wat's wrong...it's juZ cos o her precision n meticulous nature tt topple her job...cos she is SLOW...

but tis is not the gist o my postings...she actualli said tt i rolled my eyeball when she ask me to do amendments...she din tell me str...i heard frm my LO...i tink it's cos she tink her requirement for me is too harsh to the extent subconsciously she tot i rolled my eyes or stared at her...tt's not being too realistic...i m hypocritical by nature...wld i even let u haf a chance to snap at me for being ungracious within ur sight? NV!...

my overall mood ytd was dampened definitely...n the LO, being redundant again kept assuring me....no...it's reassuring...telling me there r positive comments abt me...she actualli said it 6 times...looks like she's poor in expressing her words...

i told her i was kinda disheartened...n nonetheless, my mum is cool w me gettin any marks...so i m not so pressurised...n the LO said tt she is disappointed in wat i say...saying i shld give my best still...when i haf doubts in the grades, i will tend to reserve my best....however, i beg to differ...cos i m petrified tt i haf to redo my assignment, thus i will prove my best...perhaps she's reading too much btwn the lines...

i told her i m a veri hypo person...i noe how to deal w pple...no matter how much i detest them...i will still put on a smile...be it fake or real...b my guest... she seems to b taken aback...but ain't it true...if i dun perform such treacherous act...will i b able to survive??? nah...undoubtedly the harsh truth... i told her i haf overcome lots these few mths or one yr...so i will noe how to handle...i tink she has given up hope on me...nearly cried ytd cos the feeling o being maligned simply suck! nevertheless...i will strive for the best still...to complete my last lap...
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me 8:04 AM


Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Restg is meant to tk a longer route in our life journey??? no...i doubted...din went for work ytd...was home slpg from 12+ at night til 10+ in the morn...n frm 2+ noon all the way til 6:30...goodness, i slpt more den half a day away...but my tension headache din get anywhere better...it juZ got me more drowsy when i took the medication...

had loads of fun on fri nite...resume to my usual haunt-nam's place for mahjong...went directly for ancestral prayers on sat morn after my sumptuous meal w derek n alan...was a lil' upset when derek says he wun like her mahjong frens...cos when we r playg mahjong...it's kinda hard to nurture feelings tt way...n he kept sayg he's ugli n fat...so nobody will wan him...i m dejected...but a smart person like him will definitely gather wat milah n nam're trying to say when they prompted so hard on fri nite...goodness...my pride is swept!

looking forward to clear my acc money tis sat...gonna go for a shopping spree..bought a pants but no top to go w...goin to hunt for it...my supervisor is gettin nicer i tink...i mean his attitude la...at least dun haf the birdie style when i 1st step in...
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me 8:29 AM