finally...it's the end of our tedious TEP...it's the end of our either hectic or slacky days...marchg towards our classical on monday...

lotsa mixed feelings for me...kinda miss the pple in cheers...eldc n of cos...ardc...i'm petrified..wonder how i position myself in class on mon...the cloud of awkwardness will somehow be lingering in the ominous sky...

today's one of their bday...i wished her happy bday...all i get was a reaction on her hand, w her back facing me...i din even get a smile...i wonder wot had i committed to get such a murderous act...doesnt pay to b nice...

will b headg for KBOX n suntec on mon...w 2 diff clicks...tml celebrating ivy's bday...was anticipating it since tues...hahZ...how i miss my gal...sec sch frens r realli more everlasting den any frens i meet in my latter phase...at least i feel light w them...at the veri minimum..i dun hafta watch wot i say...n everyone's secret's open secrets within ourselves...

i'm afraid to learn anything new...or rather, the truth...i dun wanna get any slanderous remarks again...somehow or rather...the scene still play back to me momentarily...probably they're onli aware o protecting their emotions...but not others...or perhaps...the discarded ones...realli wonder if they r following my footsteps in repitition...i wonder how smeared my name is...to tink tt some pple's treatment 2wards me r no longer the same...m i over-sensitive??? i hope so...i'm grieving...probably i reali tk them seriously as my fren...but i'm not returned the favour...saddening...