Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i tink my female in-charge (ann) has got some problem...she is suffering from sensitivity disorder...she kept asking me to do some amendments for the pasting o receipts on a fresh pc o paper...
i did...n i followed suit...following the eg she had given me...n i realised tt i cld actualli paste the receipts on printed pages cos the example tells me so...in 4 mins after i submitted my work...she came into my room...n she narrowed her eyes, shrug her eyebrow n ask me how could i do tt...pasting receipts on fresh pc o paper is essential becos one fine day they might need to photocopy it...n she ask me to remove those paper tt r alr stuck fast w glue by tearing them out one by one...
after which...she came in again...asking me how could i stick all the receipt together...goodness...she's teaching me how to waste paper....since the receipt is reinburse by the same person...wat's wrong...it's juZ cos o her precision n meticulous nature tt topple her job...cos she is SLOW...
but tis is not the gist o my postings...she actualli said tt i rolled my eyeball when she ask me to do amendments...she din tell me str...i heard frm my LO...i tink it's cos she tink her requirement for me is too harsh to the extent subconsciously she tot i rolled my eyes or stared at her...tt's not being too realistic...i m hypocritical by nature...wld i even let u haf a chance to snap at me for being ungracious within ur sight? NV!...
my overall mood ytd was dampened definitely...n the LO, being redundant again kept assuring me....no...it's reassuring...telling me there r positive comments abt me...she actualli said it 6 times...looks like she's poor in expressing her words...
i told her i was kinda disheartened...n nonetheless, my mum is cool w me gettin any marks...so i m not so pressurised...n the LO said tt she is disappointed in wat i say...saying i shld give my best still...when i haf doubts in the grades, i will tend to reserve my best....however, i beg to differ...cos i m petrified tt i haf to redo my assignment, thus i will prove my best...perhaps she's reading too much btwn the lines...
i told her i m a veri hypo person...i noe how to deal w pple...no matter how much i detest them...i will still put on a smile...be it fake or real...b my guest... she seems to b taken aback...but ain't it true...if i dun perform such treacherous act...will i b able to survive??? nah...undoubtedly the harsh truth... i told her i haf overcome lots these few mths or one yr...so i will noe how to handle...i tink she has given up hope on me...nearly cried ytd cos the feeling o being maligned simply suck! nevertheless...i will strive for the best still...to complete my last lap...
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