i'm in love once again!!! triumphant i guess...

we had a rough patch b4 we got together...juZ some argument...but it nearly drove us nuts, we were near to "severing ties"...how grave is tt

but it was sweet since we "tied the knots since saturday"...saturated w hope n happiness...met up w him on sat...sweet get-together...

but i freaked out on monday...he's an ultra sensitive guy, we were juZ discussing how happy i was cos i m able to indulge in the meatball from IKEA as my kind fren packed it for me, b4 catchg a movie in cine...he replied "well, since u r easily contented and satisfied den i nd not spend too much time on u as ur other frens can do a good job as well..."

i told him those guys were juZ substitutes n they r willing to die in ur shoe...

he replied " well in my knowledge, if one can b substituted, he is no longer holding an impt place in dat position anymore..."

frigging intimidating...attempted to msg him so many time, none were replied...my tears flowed involuntarily of cos...i tot it was the end o us again...when he finally called, i thank god for it, since when i'm into religion...pple do change, dun we?

fetched him anticough tea on tues, sprang a surprise since he weren't aware i will b waiting for him, i was so disappointed when he told me he's waitg for his frens, but m touched when he fly tt guy's kite n joined me instead...

he stared at me, askin me to promise there'll b no repetitions o such act, cos it's so late in the nite, n i'm alone...he nearli drove me to desperation when he said he'll pay for me to go home...fucking pissed can...i walked off, but at least he grabbed me...easing some o my pain...but we made up soon after...

i noe i m plain dumb n stupid...i badly wan tis relationship to work out...not cos i'm egoistic...but i tink i realli fall in real deep...i feel inadequate security...as much as i wanna get closer to him, i feared i will b a nuisance...

love stinks...but at least i'm glad he changed his nick to "she will b loved alwiz" how sweet!!! haha...nvm, i'm once again in a cranky mood...and we r two cranky bitches...right baby?