i'M feEl iSolatEd...yea...alL oF a suDden..nahZ...i'm noT haVG mY pErioD...it's noT another of MY moOD swiNG...i'M noT alRigHT...!!!...

i'M retuRng tO thE wrEckEd hSe agaIN...tiS EVeninG...as MUch as i DUn WanA rEtuRN...i stiLL wAn2 tK a gliMpSe at iT...iT sEems as thoUgH it'S mY laSt nITE thErE>..i hAte mY daD...hE's suCH a BastErd...tO tiNK Tt i GOta "sEek RefuGe" iN mY aunT's ResidenTial PL...agAin...i' goNa coMplain aBT tt PLace...i CAnt AFfoRd tO reaCh hoME late>...eVeryone seems to tk me as a rebel whenever i reutrn home after 11pm....it's onli 11...but when my cousin step back at 12...it seems normal..wot e hell..it's driving me crazy...my life seems to b revolving ard YCK n hougang...no liFE...ain'T it???

late nights...own room...undisposable allowance...privacy and what knots...seems to diminished...into FACADEs... i dun get it...it's all his doings...y r we the one who shoulder foR him...

i'm melancholy...i'm not happy...nottin's smooth sailing like wot it used to be...things used to be at my disposal...but now...

mum's mood swings's been acting up every single day...n unfortunately...my bro n i ended up as her frustration-venting tool...we're used...implicated...damn him...deem him a bugger n failure for life...

i'm nonchalant in my outer shell...but m i realli tt indifferent??? my aunt seems to pinpoint at my perspective...everything i say seems to appear as nonsense...yeah...tt's onli to the adults...she ask me to b more submissive to my mum...but hello!!! everything's got an expiry date...when's mine??? do i have to b meek and quiet in front of them everyday??? is tt the real me they wanna me to put up w? i'm stressed...for e 1st time in my life...

i've to live on w it...rite??? i dun seem to have much choice...i dunno who to tok to n i dun wan to...cos it'll unravel even more unhappiness...

once upon a time...behind a impeccably-dressed gal...yeah...suCKSSsss!!!