i hAd a lAte niGht...noT tt i'M traumAtiSed bY stH, it's moRe likE i'M boGged bY a TesTiMoniAl...mY BRo caRelEss SCroLLed tO niCk's FrenSter last niTZ..thEre it Was, depiCtg hiS eVEryDAy liFE...n hiS nEw...(i duN wiSH tO ADmit) GF...yEAh...shE's youNGEr...er...oR look moRe yoUThFUl dEn mE??? they"re iNDeEd coMpatiBle...iDenticaL AcademiC QUaliFicatIOn, typiCAl behAVioR...n lOTs...i Din RealiSe a piCture teLLs a thoUSand tALes finAllY imPLies On mE nOW...

i'M piSsed...noT coS hE saiD alL thoSe sWeEt-honEy woRds TO HEr...it'S juZ tt...i'M deVEloPG a SEvERe inFErioRity COmplEx...lOOKinG baCk aT hiM n hEr, i FElt likE a Trash, doWntroDdEn n SWayEd bY sWeEt bUT mEaniNGlEss WOrds...i diN noE tT a yR RelatiONshiP caN b So vuLnErablE...diD hE haVE hEr whEn hE's hAVg mE as Well??? y DoEs hE sayS i'M a FliRt??? waS IT tO shoVE mE awaY frOm him??? indEed, truTh's ALwiZ thE hARsH RealITy...

A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows; Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last; To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die; You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose.-- tRUe, ain't iT?

i ReGRet flAiRing mY lanGuage in FroNT o him, oBLivious ABt hiS inNer fEelg...i woNDEr iF thoSe inferiority AnD miStruSt Are ArisEd bY mE...i SHlDn't hAVE bRinG hiM tO mEet my Frens, noEiNG tt hE's a mAle chAUviniSt...n Tt hE's aFraiD tO loSe oUT tO hiS Gf...i SHldn'T hVE DOnE lots...To ThE eXtEnt o RunnIng fROm hoME afTEr a quArRel w mY muM...coS oF him, i SHlDN't, i shlDN't, i Shldn't

hE's my souRcE o RegREts...my GReatesT REGRets...i'M nOT alRiGHT alTHou i ClaiMED to bE...iT"s nOT Easy TO BReAK aWay...it is a wonder How simIlar thE pAttErn o loVe iS tO thE pAttErn oF InsanIty...foR tis...i AGREe...