the inflicted pain had gradually tk its leave, i'm gradualli feeling numb in all these waitings...many a times i wanna probe "how long do u wan me to continue waiting, n how long do u tink i can wait"...i also wanna probe "since u say ur life onli revolve ard ur family cos ur gf might eventually leave u, den y make me ur gal"...so many uncertainties...so many whys...i used to get uptight when he din msg me for more den 12 hrs...i used to cry on my slpless nites...i used to do many stupid lil things for him...i used to...

after 30 dec...after a long day o pinning...after a long day he failed to contact me...it seems like i've relived my singlehood...relived a scrutineer in love...haha...wat a flop after a long attempt...i give up...i surrender...Y? cos it's alreadi january...he promised to b nice...he promised he'll b less hectic...it's alr the 4th jan...i still cant feel a tinge o changes in his bustling schedule...it seems impossible for me to fit in...he dun deserve me anyw...can someone knock some sense into me...y m i stranded in this fruitless relationship...i'm a nutcase...i love him n i'm sure he din love me as much as i do...i pin for him n obviously he doesnt feel as strongly as wat i feel...i miss him tremendously...but prolly he misses juZ an iceberg o wat i feel...none o the above's reciprocated...giving is a gift in love...receiving is a bonus...i wan to make sacrifices...but better pull myself outta pit b4 i fall deeper...

shall stop all these ramblings...but my mood's lousy...frigging lousy...off form